Current Music: heartquake - super junior
Title: why is love so painful
characters: Mikan x Natsume with Ruka
Fandom: Gakuen Alice
Natsume, Ruka and Mikan were all together. they sat next to a bench facing the river. they were watching the sunset. Natsume looked at Mikan, he saw mikan's cuteness and her aegyo. he blushed a little and suddenly looked away. natsume had his heart beating so fast. ruka noticed the looked on natsume's face. he saw how natsume tried to resist. its like he's keeping his pain all to himself. he couldn't let it out. natsume's heart began to beat faster, he was sweating so much. Mikan noticed natsume sweating. she suddenly looked at him.
"Natsume, are you okay?" mikan touched natsume's sweating hand and she touched his forehead.
"ugly, don't touch me!" natsume slapped mikan's hand.
Mikan wanted to cry. but she hesitated to do so.
"Natsume, what's wrong?"
"polka, its non of your business!"
Ruka stood up and said "I'm going to get some drinks just to cool you guys up. I'll be back"
Mikan looked down. her eyes were starting to blur. but she didn't want natsume to see her crying. she looked at the river, she wondered why natsume's like this., she couldn't understand. mikan wanted to help him. just to ease his pain. she wanted to be someone natsume would look up to whenever he's feeling lonely. she wanted to be a friend. no, not just a friend, but to be someone close and important to him. Mikan looked at natsume. natsume noticed her and looked at her as well. they caught each others glance. natsume could see that mikan wanted to cry.
"polka... don't cry"
"i'm not crying" but tears suddenly rushed down to her cheeks.
"stupid." natsume placed his hand on mikan's cheek, trying to wipe off the tears. Mikan just stared at him. his hand was warm and soft. its like her cheeks were burning from redness. but she didn't mind, it felt good. because of what natsume did, mikan was touched. so she covered her face and started to cry. natsume was just looking at her. natsume finally spoke up
"you look uglier when you cry, stop crying. its annoying"
mikan still stayed silent until natsume couldn't bear with it.
natsume touched mikan's hand. he held mikan's chin. he wanted mikan to look at him in the eyes. he didn't like to see mikan crying. whenever mikan feels sadness, natsume would want to cheer her up. he wanted to be mikan's happiness and strength.
mikan was surprised with what natsume had said. she looked at him. she can feel her face turning red. natsume was still holding her hand and her cheek. natsume leaned closer until their noses touched.
"i don't want to see you crying, i don't want to see you suffering" natsume closed his eyes and leaned closer. mikan's eyes widened. his lips were touching hers. natsume deepened the kiss and mikan on the other hand, hugged him tightly. natsume hugged her curves. they didn't want to let go of each other. but then natsume pulled away. he couldn't look at mikan.
mikan couldn't even speak. she just stared at natsume.
Ruka saw the whole scene. he saw how natsume held mikan in his arms while they kissed passionately. he saw mikan hugged natsume back and closed her eyes. ruka felt jealousy. he knew that natsume loves mikan so much. he stood there still, not moving an inch. ruka's eyes became blurry, his heart was aching. he also knew that mikan had feelings for natsume. he knew that mikan would never like him,. after a while, he sorted it out. he'll let go of mikan. even though he loves mikan so much, natsume needs mikan more than he does. but he will always be here for the two of them. Ruka smiled, wiped his eyes and imitated a fake smile. he went to the both of theme and gave their drinks.
Mikan and natsume just acted like they were fine. but deep inside, they knew that they were in love.